Focus on kitty, keep in mind that you did that absolute right thing for Scamper and he is in a better place without pain. He didn't suffer by having him put down. And savor the memeries that you will always have of him. Your kitty really sounds like a sweetheart. My other kitty, Puma, is a real sweetheart. He is one of the most sweet cats that I have ever had. I can tell he is missing Smokey, though. The only thing that drives me crazy about Puma is his tail. It goes up over his back and is just not right. He was a rescue kitty that we found when he was about three weeks old, when we had a really bad cold spell, plus a dog was after him when we found him. If we hadn't found him, I'm sure he would have died since he was too young. I had many pets growing up. Even though we lived in the country too many of them were killed by dogs or coyotes etc. Now that I have a choice since I'm an adult whether to keep them indoors or not, they will definitely be kept indoors. We also have stray dogs, coyotes and I even seen an owl grab a cat once. When my small dog was still a baby a hawk tried to grab her. Luckily I was only about three feet from her when it swooped at her, or she would have been gone. I would have never thought about an owl or hawk until this. I had another cat, Hank, that we had to put down a few years ago. My husband even teared up and he doesn't particularly like animals. Hank would have been 22 years old in another month or so. It's so hard but it was the best for him not to suffer any longer like your dog Scamper. Know that you did do the right thing no matter how hard it was. It shows that you really did love your pet. Wherever he is now in animal heaven or whatever, that he knows this and you did do the absolute right thing. The animal shelters around here are so overcrowded that some of them have quit taking in animals and are having to euthanize so many a day. I have considered adopting one but it's just to soon. I wish I could take all of the animals home with me. Smokey was an animal shelter kitty when we got him. He was the first one to reach through the cage and try to get my son's head when we went by, so he was the one my son and I took home. I'm sorry this got to long, but it really does help to vent. I'll be thinking of you also and hope that your days will get easier.