: I know I am new here...but....
Dear Rosetea, it is o.k. to be sad and feel bad about what we have done to hurt ourself or others, Lord knows I have hurt allot of people in my younger days due to my own desires and addictions. But the human spirit is very tough, and most people will forgive you if you show them in time that you really have changed and are truly sorry. I lost all of my blood family at that time in my life, and while they have forgiven me somewhat, they never wanted me back, but that is o.k. Because of that situation I have a new family that choose me just because they love me, and not because we have the same blood and they think they have to. My new family loves me as much as anyone could. I was 24 before I had a mom and dad who loved and wanted me, They are deceased now, but they are the most wonderful mom and dad in the world, and just because we are not blood and I didn't get them until I was grown doesn't make them any less family then anyone else. You just have to admit what you did wrong, apologise, try to make it right, Then the biggest then is wait and leave it to God and let the person or people make up their own mind whether to trust you again. And if they say no accept it, and remember you are never alone God is always there, and forgives you for any terrible thing you either did, :smt006 or think you did. So prayers and love to you, And try and remember. This too will pass in time. My prayers and love to you
tobby1