I have been a stay-at-home mom for over 8 years. I have really enjoyed it. This year my youngest started kindergarten, so I decided to go back to work. I was hired and will be starting work next Monday with orientation this Friday. I am SCARED to death. My husband does not understand why. I am totally worried about everything. Not being there for my kids when and if they get sick at school. Or having to call in cause they are sick. Them going to afterschool, although the person they are going to I completely trust no one can care for your kids like you do. Basically I am just scared about screwing up and not being able to juggle a job and my 3 boys too. Also since I have not worked in so long I am not use to being on my feet as much so I am a little worried about how I am going to adjust to that. I love afternoon naps and will soooo miss my sleep too. Hopefully I will my body and my emotions will adjust just fine. You name it I am worried about it! I just feel like there is so much pressure on me to do well. My family has been on me to get a job, my sister (who has no children), brother-in-law (which is my husbands best friend) and now they got to my husband. Why is it that just because you are a stay at home mom you are looked at as lazy that's what they think. I am now doubting myself and whether I can be successful at a job as well. I should not have let them get to me, but I feel like I am under a microscope and they are just waiting for me to fail. I already had enough worries about going back to work they just add to it. Hopefully it all goes smoothly, I think that if something goes wrong I will crack and bust out in tears.
My kids on the other hand are very excited about it. They are excited about going to after school care and mommy working. Hopefully I can make them proud.